After L Ron Hubbard, the founder of Scientology, died the Church of Scientology made an abortive effort to produce an ‘official’ biography. It was written under contract by a non-Scientologist, Omar Garrison but was found wanting, and never published.
Hubbard’s collected papers were prepared for Garrison by a Scientologist called Gerry Armstrong who became increasingly disturbed by the disparity between the facts that they revealed and the presentation of Hubbard by the Church of Scientology (for example, the Church presents Hubbard as a “Nuclear Physicist” and “Medical Doctor” despite the fact he no qualifications whatsoever in those fields). Disillusioned, Armstrong made the papers public.
They included this document, written by Hubbard around 1947, and variously called his ‘Affirmations’ or ‘Admissions’.
It represents Hubbard’s first attempt at a ‘self-help’ regime, which he aimed at himself. It reveals what can only be characterised as ‘magical thinking’. He lists his perceived failures, character flaws and insecurities and addresses them with positive thinking.
In the process, Hubbard reveals a lot about his real personality and character. He list his insecurities, anxieties and physical problems. He also admits mistakes and disappointments (e.g. being removed from command of a Naval vessel during his war service) that he, and the Church of Scientology were later to overlook and then deny. Finally, he displays the kind of ‘magical thinking’ that permeates his later writings – the apparent conviction that, if he believe something strongly enough, this will make it true.
To skip the introduction, go straight to page 7 of the .pdf document.